In our journeys of faith, we invariably bump into roadblocks, moments of trials and get a little hit sideways.
How do we walk ourselves through them? Simple problems like meeting project deadlines, to larger than life issues – what next, God? Where am i heading?
I headed to church today slightly heavy hearted, knowing I needed to be strong, yet almost unable to muster that strength. I was running late – I was a poor example – I was not going to be on time -where is my heart for the Lord – why is it i’m always on time for school but i can’t do the same for church…. WHERE IS MY HEART?!?!
These thoughts plagued my poor mind as I sped-walked to the end to hall 10, all the time wondering – why is it so far away? I was discouraged because God seemed so far this morning – He wasn’t by my side, like He was the rest of the week. Part of me felt rebellious – church was becoming like a routine. The messages weren’t taking root in my heart. I wasn’t interested; i was tired, I was questioning, I was slightly jaded.
I walked into Hall 10, 15 minutes late. “2nd time in the month,” a voice in my head rapped at me like a stern disciplinarian.
The familiar strains of praise songs met my ears as I greeted the usher who handed me a brochure. “Service”, it wrote on the front cover. Just what I was searching for. My heart leapt a little.
A familiar face greeted me on my way in – i realised it was our combined tribe on hospitality. Thank God for every one of them. My spirits lifted a little more. As I walked in, trying to look as inconspicuous as possible, a smile worked its way onto my face as I gazed at the worshippers on stage. I just couldn’t stay worried any longer. Something spoke to my spirit – “This is Home!”
Thank You God! I leapt my way to where my tribe sat, settled down and immersed in worship. God was so real, He was there for me. The worship ministered to me, the Words released by Pastor on stage were the exact encouragement i needed.
The heart of service – my seeker heart needed to hear that.
The encouragement to know that Christ is all I need – that He is walking with me, through each moment of my life. “Mean what you sing, and sing what you mean.”
Dear Lord, may each word uttered by my lips today be sweet praises unto You – that they may be truthful words I sing – for You desire truth, in the inward parts. A broken spirit, and a contrite heart.
Thank You Lord…